Here is my Symposium 2 video presentation!
I have no idea why I sound like a little girl… Do I really sound like that?
My sinuses are a bit blocked ( I found out that I started to snore at nights :D), maybe it adds extra meow
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Making ‘a world’
My interest in narrative was always there. But I never felt that this is in my power to bring a story to life.
When I started this course, I wanted to focus on quality of my works, learn and improve of what a drawing could be. I didn’t see any limits, nor I see now. I had many expectations, but I struggled a lot. I was way too interested in the drawing, in the story and all nuances that appeared within a process. I noticed how it is never certain. How easily it changes.
When I began doing my research I realised how animation methods influence narrative and that animation isn’t just a method, a final medium to present a story.
Therefore, in my research paper I decided to focus on animation methods in making ‘a world’.
Whether animation is a representation of reality or comes from an artistic imagination, it discusses how the meaning emerges from the process of making. ‘A world’ is accepted by the way materials and objects are used; it combines fantasy, dreams and represents the artist’s truth of reality.
In the beginning I fell into ethics and behavioural studies; I wanted to define ‘bad behaviour’, raise questions whether it is appropriate or not. As much as it is crucial subject matter, I felt that I am being trapped = my work is being trapped. I began analysing artists’ processes.
William Kentridge, Nathalie Djurberg, Allison Schulnik, Hirotoshi Iwasaki were one of the most inspiring artists. They helped me realize the importance of the process and how the world can be created. I began experimenting and working on my side projects.
Whilst the artwork itself is an artistic expression and freedom, I was curious to find freedom in the making. Drawing or animation, or any other media, I tried to look into and discover something that lies in between, where the moment is being born.
‘Stay a while, you are beautiful!’
(From Goethe’s ‘Faust’)
The skills I wanted to gain, stopped matter; it became irrelevant to the creative process. All I wanted were natural shapes, forms and raw material.
Be able to capture that truthful moment. Praise the flaws. Let the story emerge within a process.
My control over the story started fading away and I focused on short moments – loops. I found that repetitive movements were giving me more fluidity and overall are hypnotizing.
The narrative I have been working with over the last two years needed some changes. I decided to eliminate beginnings with endings and focus on one moment. Many one moments. Cut out small fragments which could be only couple seconds long. Or as long as the drawing need to be done by following frame after frame. But it remains continuous.
Using such method, allowed me to be able use symbolism and create metaphors without overpowering main characters in my narrative. Having all them separate I am able to keep their materiality and quality.
Despite my final artworks being animations, I see them as drawings. I am trying to keep its materiality, sketchiness and keep an unfinished drawing look. To capture the liveliness of drawing the best way is to do projections, therefore I have been planning to create projection installation, where all fragmented moments would come together.
I was quite fortunate to do a solo show in Lithuania last month, where I was able to test my installation idea. In the past I used simple small projections on a wall, which at that time worked, but I wanted something more tactile.
I started sketching ideas of various possible projections, while I came to a conclusion to get different size plinths, couple boards and when just to play along.
I arrived to the gallery to install without any prior visiting; I only saw the space in photographs and I was also given the gallery space measurements.
My aim was to guide the spectator and create a very relaxing environment. The narrative is whimsical; a lot of elements can’t be understood, they fall in and fall out. To understand the process, I was able to use a small office space for a drawing installation. That gave everyone an understanding of how it was made and able to see an actual physical body. In frames.
Overall, my project consists of many elements; narrative, process, interaction…
My first proposal title was:
‘Through the language of drawing: How to react to unexpected?’
When, I meant how to deal with my drawn situations, but what I dealt with was the drawing and animation itself. I learnt that sometimes unexpected is more interesting and more beautiful. It is fresh and more promising.
For the last few terms I was aiming to create ‘a world’ using the stories I collected. Deconstructing them, when drawing over and following the flow.